A Heavy Heart

"im missing the kids in ET :( i've had a heavy heart the last few days thinking about them... i just keep praying for the littles ones by name and praying that God will meet all their needs each day. if i didn't have wes, i'd say im ready to go back tomorrow :)"

This was a post I made to my friend, Rachel's, facebook wall today. I feel it pretty much sums up how I've been feeling the last few days.  People have asked me if I miss Ethiopia, and I say "yes". But since coming back from Ethiopia, I've enjoyed just being home with my little man. I missed him so much while I was gone, and was just so happy to have him in my arms again. But with each passing day, I miss ET more and more. I miss the smiles on those kids faces. I miss seeing the kids running alongside the vehicle with hands full of candy and clothes. I miss the special bond with Kasshun and Danal. I miss the feeling of knowing I was doing exactly what God wanted me to be doing. I miss it ...

When I think of returning, I think about Wes. If it wasn't for Wes, I'd be signed up for the next trip! So, I pray that the Lord will continue to work in my heart, and Jeremy's heart, until He shows us His will. Until then, I will continue to pray for those kiddos by name. I will pray that God will meet every need that I am unaware of and that only He can meet. And, I will continue to thank God for blessing me so richly.